‘BORN BROKEN’

“It’s not your fault.”

“The divide was already there, between your mother and I. You were the product of a selfish act based on a lie.”

“You were born broken and no amount of projects, meaningless relationships or possessions will ever make you feel complete.”

“It’s just not who you are.”

“Sorry, kid.”

 

KNOWING YOUR GAMES….

YOU’RE JUST NEXT DOOR…

BUT YET YOU’RE SO FAR AWAY……

REALLY NEED YOUR LOVE….

REALLY NEED YOUR TOUCH….

STILL…. WALKING AWAY FROM ME….

IT’S A NORMAL THING TO DO….

I KNOW I’M NOT THAT PERFECT….

TO PLEASE YOU IS THE ONLY THING I WANNA DO….

YOU TORTURED ME WITH YOUR SILENCE….

YOU KILLED MY SOUL WITH YOUR LAUGHTER WITH THE OTHERS….

SUCH A FEELING I GOTTA CONTROL…

SUCH PAIN I GOTTA HOLD ON TO…….

 

ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS…

Every couple has some quarrels and disagreements, but when do everyday disagreements turn into emotional stress and abuse? Some signs of physically or emotionally abusive relationships include:
Frequent Injuries or Bruises – Victims of abusive relationships may continuously have unexplained marks and injuries – even ones that are so painful or obvious that they’ll frequently call in sick to work or make up excuses why they can’t go out. However, many abusers are careful to only hit in less conspicuous spots that can be covered with clothing, so just because you don’t see the bruises, doesn’t mean they’re not there.

Isolation – Abusers often control who and what their victims see and do, sometimes causing them to become more and more isolated. The less of a support system their victim has, the harder it is to leave their abuser.

Intimidation and Threats –  Abusers may place emotional stress on their victims by threatening to harm them, their pets, or their family – often breaking items or showing them weapons that they threaten to use if provoked.

Control and Manipulation  –  Controlling most aspects of their victim’s life – from food and money to what they wear and where they work – are common signs of abusive relationships.

Sexual Abuse  –   Victims of abuse may be forced to have sex against their will.

Possessiveness –  Unwarranted jealousy or accusations of infidelity are common tactics used in abusive relationships.

Humiliation –  Putting down one’s partner in public, shaming them, or causing emotional stress and feelings of worthlessness are signs of an abuser.

Substance Abuse –  An abuser might blame excessive alcohol or drug use on his violence and the emotional stress he causes his partner.

Denial and Blame –  Abusers are pros at making up excuses for their behavior, denying that there is a problem, and even blaming their victim.

Emotional Rollercoaster –  Abusers often have a Jekyll and Hyde personality – abusive and hurtful one moment and loving and doting the next. This cycle is often what keeps victims trapped in abusive relationships. The bad times are really bad, but the good times are really good.

Recognizing that you are in an abusive relationship is the first step in getting out. Getting help is the next step.

 

 

 

TO 10 COMMANDMENTS FOR RELATIONSHIPS TO WORK PERFECTLY

1  Love each other.

2  Open lines of communication.

3  Respect for each other.

4  Honesty is the best policy.

5  Sacrifices.

6  Compromising.

7  Conflict resolution.

8  Give space when needed.

9  Maintain the element of surprise.

10  Remind the other person why you chose them.

 

                                       Independent of your background, culture, ethnicity, socioeconomic level, or any other factor, everything should come down to how much you love each other. This feeling or sentiment is recognized in any four corners of the globe. In addition, the lines of communication are crucial and it is better to maintain a high degree of transparency to build everlasting trust.

                                              The third point is one of the essential, if not the most important, aspects of a relationship: respect. Without this, no relationship of any kind can really evolve in a healthy manner. By extension, honesty goes hand in hand with open lines of communication and it is better to tell the truth.

                                              When you give up something, no matter the cost or worth, you are building a lifetime partnership. This opens a smooth transition to the step of compromising and making exchanges that satisfy both parties invested in the relationship.

                                          Nevertheless, conflicts will occur at any point of the relationship. Conflicts sometimes show up in the early phases or at a later stage when getting to know someone. So it is best when a tense argument erupts to have each person walk away and reconvene when moods are settled down. There is nothing worse than saying fowl or mean things in the heat of the moment — you will regret it later. Think long and hard before uttering painful words at the other person.

                                                  Chances are, if you have reached item eight on the list, that it is easier from there onward. Co-existing with a lifelong partner requires a lot of work and a sense of renewing the relationship, so allow for the other person to engage in separate activities with others. This helps remove saturation and a sense of routine or boredom with each other.

                                            Whenever appropriate, plan beyond traditional relationship holidays like Valentine’s Day or an Anniversary celebration. Sure you want to keep those days in mind, yet leave plenty of room for spontaneous events. This helps build a sense of adventure and timeliness for any relationship. Remind each other in reasonable amounts why you are with each other in the first place.

 

THE OATH OF HAPPINESS

If you’ve asked yourself how to become a happier person, this is already a very good sign. Happiness is not something that happens to us by chance. Being happy is an achievable and learned skill, which requires constant work on your attitude and depends on how you interpret your life situation. Happiness is largely a matter of choice. And it is probably the smartest life choice you can make. Recent studies show that happy people are 35% less likely to die early than unhappy ones!

So, what do you need to remember if you want to be truly happy?

1. Never dwell on the past

“Learn to appreciate what you have before time makes you appreciate what you had.” – Unknown

Your past is just a story. Everyone has a past – often full of pain, disappointment, missed opportunities, and unfulfilled expectations. No matter what your past looks like, it’s just a story – so don’t let it influence you. Make the present meaningful.

2. Never focus on what’s missing; look at what you actually have.

 “Happiness is not having what you want. It is appreciating what you have.”- Unknown

Be grateful for what you have. You could waste hours counting the things you would like to improve, which would only take you away from appreciating your real life. Gratitude puts situations into perspective and rewires your mind toward a positive direction.

3. Never underestimate quality time with yourself.

 “Focus on loving yourself instead of loving the idea of other people loving you.” – Unknown

Don’t confuse happiness with excitement; a lasting joy of life grows when your mind is in peace. Making time for yourself is as important as devoting time to your everyday duties. Regular meditation, sport, contact with nature, and quality (offline) time spent reading will help you reconnect with yourself and hear your intuition again.

4. Never stop improving yourself.

“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever”. – Mahatma Gandhi

We are all different, and there is no perfect direction or path to our personal evolution. The whole point is to become the best version of YOU, and never stop taking lessons from your own life experiences.

5. Never be too harsh on yourself.

“Be gentle with yourself. You’re doing the best you can.“ – Unknown

Many of us are our own hardest critics, constantly diminishing every success. Accept that you will never be ideal – and see this as okay. In the process of self-development, embracing your own  vulnerabilities has been scientifically proven to be a key component of happiness.

6. Never lose a sense of purpose in what you are doing.

“What you do today is important, because you are exchanging a day of your life for it.” – Unknown

Your time and life power are limited, so spend them wisely and target your energy towards something meaningful. Finding a purpose helps you live a bigger life.

7. Never treat your body badly.

“Your body is precious. It is your vehicle for awakening. Treat it with care.” – Buddha

A truly happy soul can only live in a healthy body. Your body will “send you a bill” for the trash you’ve eaten, the sports classes you’ve skipped, your long nights of partying, and your long hours of stressful work. Treat your body as your biggest investment; it will have to serve you your entire life.

8. Never value material things more than experiences.

“Your actions are your only true belongings.” – Allan Lokos

Experiences bring people more happiness than possessions, which never keep you satisfied. Experiences will last in your head forever, nourish your mind, and become a memory which will light up your face with a smile on a bad day.

9. Never compare yourself to other people.

“True happiness is when you are living your life without waiting for anyone’s approval.”- Unknown

Everyone lives life at a different pace, which makes us each special and beautiful. The sooner you embrace your uniqueness and the differences between you and other people, the happier you will be. Surround yourself with people who appreciate you for who you really are without trying to change you or reframe you.

10. Never let your bad thoughts grow.

“The happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts” – Marcus Aurelius

Being judgmental, jealous, or angry will at some point turn against you. A bad thought can trigger bad speech, just as bad words provoke bad actions. Don’t let your mind initiate anything you’d be ashamed of later.

11. Never fear to embrace change.

“You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one.”- Unknown

As you accept the laws which change our life, our bodies, and the way we evolve, you will see the unique beauty of every moment in life with all its natural flow. Be open to new opportunities and humbly accept changes you can’t influence.

12. Never blame others for your own failures.

“Don’t look for someone who will solve all your problems. Look for someone who won’t let you face them alone.” – Unknown

Be responsible for your actions and their outcomes. Taking responsibility gives you a sense of power over your life; blaming your life on circumstances can make you feel powerless.

13. Never tame your curiosity.

“If you do nothing unexpected, nothing unexpected happens.” – Fay Weldom

Be curious and ask a lot of questions. Travel, observe, read, watch, and talk with smart people to open your mind and explore the world. Inquisitive thinking and a passion for exploring will nourish your mind.

14. Never stop being mindful.

“Don’t wait for the perfect moment. Take the moment and make it perfect” – Unknown

Learn to mindfully observe, smell, hear, and fully appreciate every minute of your life. Those who can’t conscientiously notice and appreciate the present moment aren’t able to be fully happy.

15. Never forget about your loved ones.

“The only way to have a friend is to be one.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

Care about those who are happy to see you succeed in life and support you in difficult times. Avoid harsh critiques and make sure these people know how glad you are that they’re a part of your life.

16. Never worry about the things you cannot influence.

“Worry is a total waste of time. It doesn’t change anything. All is does it steal your joy and keep you very busy doing nothing.”- Unknown

How many times has a situation you’ve worried about not come true? Worrying about things you can’t influence is a waste of time and makes you feel unnecessarily miserable.

17. Never attach happiness to something in the future.

“Think of all the beauty that is still left in and around you and be happy.” – Anne Frank

Many people live like they’re waiting for something – to find a perfect love partner, to get promoted, or to retire with a good pension. Don’t postpone your happiness to a moment in the future; life is all about enjoying the journey.

18. Never stop meeting new people.

“People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.” – Joseph F Newton

Surrounding yourself with happy people makes you happier. Meeting new people nowadays is easy, due to open lifestyles, new technologies, internet forums, popular mobilr apps. It would be a waste to not make the most of this opportunity. Even people who enter your life for a short time can teach you important lessons and make your life more colorful.

19. Never let your ego win.

“Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It’s a relationship between equals.”- Pema Chodron

Acting with anger and following your insecurities can only complicate your life situation. Instead, act with compassion and humility towards others. Showing maturity will make your relations with others more joyful and fulfilling.

20. Never voluntary harm.

“A man cannot be comfortable without his own approval.” – Mark Twain

Every choice you make, every word you say, and every purchase you make impacts someone’s life. Choose to be a good person.

21. Never stop living life to the fullest.

“Hug harder. Laugh louder. Smile bigger. Love longer.” – Unknown

Live intensely. Do what you want and enjoy it with all your senses. Start working on fulfilling your dreams as soon as possible. “Hug harder. Laugh louder. Smile bigger. Love longer.”

22. Never forget to smile.

“Use your smile to change the world; don’t let the world change your smile.” – Unknown

You don’t know what the person in front of you is going through. Be kind to others and share your smiles and positive words. Isn’t it amazing to make someone’s day a little better in such a simple way?

23. Never be afraid to completely change your life.

“If you’re still looking for that one person who will change your life, take a look in the mirror.” – Roman Price

It is never too late to completely change your life and make it more meaningful. Let your mind be free and surprise you from time to time.  Go with the flow and open yourself up to different possibilities.

24. Never be afraid of being alone.

“If you make friends with yourself you will never be alone.” – Maxwell Maltz

Don’t be afraid of being alone. Happiness is internal, and you don’t need anyone or anything to be happy. Learn to have fun on your own: walk, travel, eat good food, etc. Being alone doesn’t mean to you have to be lonely. Look at monks for example – being happy in solitude is a virtue.

25. Never stop organizing your own happiness.

“Confidence is preparation. Everything else is beyond your control.” – Richard Kline

Happiness appears where dreams meet preparation. Make a conscious everyday effort to shape yourself and your life the way you want.

26. Never stop loving.

“Love as much as you can from wherever you are.” – Thaddeus Golas

True love doesn’t lose value over time; it multiplies and comes back to you the more you give it away. The meaning of our whole existence would be much simpler if love meant only romantic love. Love everyone who you think deserves and needs your love. Love the Earth and the people who have helped you become who you are. Love your own life.

RESOLUTION OR CHANGES..?? YOU DECIDE

“FOR WHAT THAT IT’S WORTH…. TO BE IN THE SPOTLIGHT….”

– MGK –

 

                                                       THOSE WERE THE THE TAGLINE… THIS YEAR RESOLUTION IS TOTALLY REVENGE…. 100% PERCENT MISSION DEDICATED TO AVENGED THE DEATH OF JUSTRAIL ASHOUZA’S CHARACTER, PERSONALITY, DAMN ALMOST KILLED THE PERSON ITSELF I’VE ASSUMED….!!! THIS YEAR IT’S PAYBACK TIME FOR ALL THOSE FUCKERS OUT THERE…. NO MATTER THE COST, NO MATTER THE BONDING, NO MATTER THE CONSEQUENCES, AND I’LL BE DAMNED IT’S STARTED ALREADY WITHOUT ME NOTICING IT AND HELL YEAH THE SATISFACTION UPON IT IT TOO SWEET, TOO DELICIOUS, TOO SATISFYING FOR ME TO DESCRIBE IT…!!!

 

Too late for the other side,
Caught in a chase,
25 to life….

Too late,
I can’t keep chasing em,
I’m taking my life back….
Caught in a chase,
25 to life….

I don’t think she understands the sacrifices that I made…
Maybe if this bitch had acted right I would’ve stayed…
But I’ve already wasted over half of my life I would’ve laid…
Down and died for you, I no longer cry for you…
No more pain, bitch…!!
You took me for granted, took my heart and ran it straight into the planet….
Into the dirt I can no longer stand it…
Now my respect I demand it…
Im gonna take control of this relationship…
Command it, and im gonna be the boss of you now, goddamnit…!!!
And what I mean is that I will no longer let you control me…
So you better hear me out this much you owe me…
I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you,
While I’ve stayed faithful all the way,
this is how I fucking get repaid..???
Look at how I dress fucking Mastrum sweats, go to work a mess,
Always in a rush to get back to you, I ain’t heard you yet….
Not even once say you appreciate me, I deserve respect…
I’ve done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness….
And I know that if I end this I’ll no longer have nothing left…..
But you keep treating me like a staircase,
So it’s time to fucking step…..!!
And I wont be coming back so don’t hold your fucking breath….!!
You know what you’ve done no need to go in depth…..!!
I told you, you’d be sorry if I fucking left…..!!
I’d laugh while you wept….!!!
Hows it feel now, yeah,..!!!
Funny ain’t it,.??
You neglected me…!!!
Did me a favor although my spirit free you’ve set…
But a special place for you in my heart I have kept…
It’s unfortunate but it’s,

Too late for the other side,
Caught in a chase,
25 to life….

I feel like when I bend over backwards for you all you do is laugh….
Cause that ain’t good enough you expect me to fold myself in half….
Til I snap,
Don’t think I’m loyal…
All I do is Chant for you and kick ass…
How can I moonlight on the side,
I have no life outside of that….
Don’t I give you enough of my time..???
You don’t think so, do you…?
Jealous when I spend time with the girls,
Why I’m married to you still man… I don’t know…
But tonight I’m serving you with papers,
I’m divorcing you…
Go marry someone else and make em famous….
And take away their freedom like you did to me….
Treat em like you don’t need them and they ain’t worthy of you….
Feed em the same shit that you made me eat…
I’m moving on, forget you oh,
Now I’m ‘FUCKING special….?
I didn’t feel special when I was with you…
All I ever felt was this,
Helplessness…
Imprisoned by a selfish bitch…!!!
Chew me up and spit me out…!!!
I fell for this so many times…
It’s ridiculous,
And still I stick with this…!!!
I’m sick of this but in my sickness and addiction,
You’re addictive as they get…!!!
Evil as they come, vindictive as they make em..
My friends keep asking me why I can’t just walk away from it…!!!
I’m addicted…!!!
To the pain, the stress, the drama, the sweats..!!!!
I’m drawn in so I guess I’m gonna mess,
Cursed and blessed….!!!
But this time I’m going to,
Ain’t changing my mind…!!!
I’m climbing out this abyss,
You screaming as I walk out that I’ll be missed…!!!
But when you spoke of people who meant the most to you,
You left me off your list…!!!

Fuck You FOOTBALL….
I’m leaving you…
my life sentence is served, bitch…!!!
And it’s just,

Too late for the other side,
Caught in a chase,
25 to life….

I’m gone, man….!!!
Too late for the other side,
Caught in a chase,
25 to life….

Too late…
Caught in a chase,
25 to life…

 

 

IT’S BEEN A YEAR….

THE DRASTIC CHANGED….    [  episode 4  ]                                                          It’s been exactly a year since she left me all alone hoping me to rot and die all by myself in this huge mansion without a single person to accompany or being there for me…. No maids….. No Servants……. No Caretaker…. No Children…. And most definitely No ‘Wife’ at all….. Not because of Cancer stage 4, Not because of a divorce, Not because of an accident in the middle of the highway, but 100% left me for her owned benefits plus a total shipwrecked brainwashed fucked up Parents and rumors has it that 65% that she mostly had an affair, A fucking Scandal, which making me more and more depressed and pressured hurting deep inside with her drastic changes towards me… A complete package such as being arrogant, selfishness, lame stupid pride, can’t be bothered attitude despite being together for 8 freaking years together in same roof, same pillows, went through thick and thin, happy and sad moments, and those sacrifices and time wasting upon raising up the kids, upgrading the house and shelter, Moving here and there within those years itself is already suffers enough thanks to both our Parents by trying their best with full heart showing their efforts regarding on ” I don’t care I don’t give a fuck just do what I say..” kinda methods…, always wanna win even though it’s so fucking obvious you’re losing here and of course…. by being a bitch, and totally an ASSHOLES….

Now all that I can do….. and all that’s left, it’s just my prayers to God hoping that one day, I shall regain back all the happiness and joy, my kids coming back at me claiming back whats actually supposed to be theirs, and of course, the one and only, my truly soulmate, my only angel, my only heart, my lovely ‘ WIFE ‘,  and of course I do hope that everything will turn back to normal just four of us living together tiredly but yet happily, full of noises but yet full of joy too, full of disasters but yet full of teamwork between all of us….  And I’m most definitely missing all those moments and shall do something about it, by GOD I will….  

 

“Grass Ain’t Greener”

You ain’t the girl that you used to be
You say you’re done, you’re moving on
This ain’t the world that it used to be
Looks like you’ve won, looks like you’ve won
Sick of leaving messages on your cell
But you never fuck with none of them
Girl you had somebody that really cared
How you fuck it up, girl it’s not fair

You used to be the one to talk to on the side
Waiting for my love to break up
It’s crazy how your ass can walk through every night
Acting like you been a player
That grass ain’t greener on the other side
Oh yeah
That grass ain’t greener on the other side
Oh yeah

[Verse 2:]
Seems like ain’t nothing cool about being real
No one’s honest about what they feel
Take a hoe and try to treat her well
She’ll be back up at the club again
I know what you want, but you’re not gon’ get it
That’s enough for sure that you fucking with you
You do what you want with somebody else
I’m gone, baby

You used to be the one to talk to on the side
Waiting for my love to break up
It’s crazy how your ass can walk through every night
Acting like you been a player
That grass ain’t greener on the other side
Oh yeah
That grass ain’t greener on the other side
Oh yeah…..

My homie said I need to stop it
My momma said bitches be watching you
They gon’ put their hand all in your pocket
For the credit card that’s in your wallet
Drinking liquor when we celebrating
Calculating all my funds
Tryna get a nigga take the condom off
Cause she want that tax every month, woo
I know what you want, but you’re not gon’ get it
Take my kindness for weakness when you acting silly
Keeping it 100 ain’t your forté
You used to be
You used to be the one to talk to on the side
Waiting for my love to break up
It’s crazy how your ass can walk through every night
Acting like you been a player
That grass ain’t greener on the other side
Oh yeah
That grass ain’t greener on the other side
Oh yeah

      -CHRIS BROWN-

DEMI CINTA

Ku sedar ku berdosa
Kerna sering menyakitimu
Membuatkan kau terluka
Berteman rasa kecewa

Walau berdepan derita
Kau selalu terus setia
Dan bertahan demi cinta
Yang pernah ku janji dulu

Besar salahku pada dirimu
Tak terbanding kasih yang kau beri
Dan tetap menggenggam erat cinta

Sayang kaulah cahaya
Menyuluh jalanku untuk kembali
Dan pegang pada tali cinta
Yang pernah ku lafaz dahulu

Sayang buka hatimu
Biar ku rawat segala deritamu
Agar kita mampu terus hidup
Nikmati bahagia

Walau berdepan derita
Kau selalu terus setia
Dan bertahan demi cinta
Yang pernah ku janji dulu

Besar salahku pada dirimu
Tak terbanding kasih yang kau beri
Dan tetap menggenggam erat cinta

Sayang kaulah cahaya
Menyuluh jalanku untuk kembali
Dan pegang pada tali cinta
Yang pernah ku lafaz dahulu

Sayang buka hatimu
Biar ku rawat segala deritamu
Agar kita mampu terus hidup
Nikmati bahagia

Sayang kaulah cahaya
Menyuluh jalanku untuk kembali
Dan pegang pada tali cinta
Yang pernah ku lafaz dahulu

Sayang buka hatimu
Biar ku rawat segala deritamu
Agar kita mampu terus hidup
Nikmati bahagia

Bahagia…..

-ezad lazim-

 

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